throughout history, authority rules, be it an authorial religion, “race”, party, or even gender. it is not a question of this particular religion that rules the rest, it is a question of an authorial religion that uses its authority to control the rest, community or a society. so basically authority sucks.

when it comes to gender, “manhood” and “femininity”, these too are constructed and developed in relation to power- because the male sex was/is institutionally authorial, for different reasons, he created an image for himself as a “man”, and created the other sex, the female, according to her authorial (or lack of) position in society as a “woe+man”, “mother”, “beautiful”, that should be either veiled or exposed, either way she is the sex that is sexually sexualized.

what happened and what’s still happening all over the world is the mixation of meaning with form: the functional role of a sex (a form is for example: to deliver a baby) becomes a social role ( meaning: she must be ideal wife, housewife, perfect mother), and this social role has a political and economical impact on the role of a female throughout history for it becomes a social, economical political system, not to mention its affect on one’s self-image and “identity”.

so if “manhood” and “femininity” are authorial constructs, that confused body function with social/political role of it, doesnt that make homosexuality pretty much normal? (actually it is normal but perhaps what i mean is not gay not even one bit) and actually, “manhood” and “femininity”, which are sexist constructs, hence, overtly meaningless and waste of our existence?

homosexuals are actually the ones who fled this authorial game of systems, they recognize their sex, and use it without giving a social meaning to their sex orientation. no social roles whatsoever are involved. female homosexuals recognize themselves apart from a system, and so does males. and when they’re not, i think (and this is my hypothesis) that’s a sign of a denial in this stupid world to their homosexual tendency, and it’s pretty a normal reaction.

i am not really good in writing in english or in arabic, i have issues with writing my thoughts, and this is me trying. this is to be translated soon in arabic, that should be interesting, i think.